Thursday, October 23, 2008

If I Only Knew (the real thing!)

I'm feeling green
And even more stupid
Because I'm jealous of the
Phone pressed to your face
You hold me so close your lips dance on my ear
You whisper me things you want no one to hear
I listen intently
and go wherever you go
But I think i'm broken down
Cause I"m getting no signal

And I want you to love me too
But I fear to ask if you do
I'd give you all my life to share
We'll do everything and go everywhere
If I only knew that you love me too

You rest your head
On my shoulder
Every time we sit
Next to each other
I want to lean in for a kiss
But I'm afraid to take that risk
What If my affection upsets you?
I could never hurt

And I want you to love me too
But I fear to ask if you do
I'd give you all my life to share
I'd open the car door and pull out your chair
If I only knew that you love me too

I may not be attractive
And I know I'm not a marine
I may be unorthodox
And I may be obscene
And I know
That I dropped out
And I know-oo-oh
That it seems
That I'm too young to feel like this
But these are far too serious
To hear them as an adolescent's song
It's far more then a sing-a long
If I could only say
What I've been dying to say

That I want you to love me too
But I fear to ask if you do
I'd give you all my life to share
I'll always be there and I'll always
And If it were true
I know exactly what I'd do
If I only knew
That you love me too

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Share Your Life

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Dolan Balin


The Souls of the Sunflowers
Decorate your eyes
suspended in this moment
our dreams are realized
the first time i kissed you
i finally came home
and after that we both knew that
we'd never be alone

Share with me these moments of laughter
Share with me the warmth of a smile
Share with me this love it's eternal
Share your life with me a while

It must be so obvious
How much I love you girl
I'm weightless and floating
caught inside your spell
clockwatching gets lazy
my mind feels all askew
and i don't think i'm crazy just
madly in love with you

Share with me these moments of laughter
Share with me the warmth of a smile
Share with me this love it's eternal
Share your life with me a while

we fit each other perfectly
you and i both know it's meant to be
there will never be another person either of us see
like the way we see each other now
happily ever after starts right now

Share with me these moments of laughter
Share with me the warmth of a smile
Share with me this love it's eternal
Share your life with me a while

Good as Gold

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Dolan Balin

Verse 1:
I guess i think i'm crazy cause all the thoughts i have they fly too fast, too fucking fast to know just what i'm trying to say right now.
The miracle i'm living is so amazing that i'm breathing in the air of the people that i love and i adore.
I share so many things with all the people in the world that i can't help but to feel that i just don't do enough.
So I'm here today to say that I now dedicate my life to all my brothers and my sisters out there all around the world.

Pre-chorus 1:
I really think i'm crazy but i really want to do amazing things, see amazing sights, and fall in love with everything.
And while i'm everywhere i know i'll always think of home and how fortunate i am to know the people i have known.

Chorus:
And Oh-oo-oh
Yeah I'm just happy to know
Oo-oh
That i've been high, i've been low
Oo-oh
And all is Good as Gold

Verse 2:
All i want to do is live in every moment with intentions of only doing what makes me happy all the time.
And when i'm sad and lonely all i have to do is call you and i know that what i'm doing is important and it's good.
You make me feel alive and for the first time in my life i want to go somewhere and do something i've never done before.
Everything i've done, well i have taken it for granted and now i realize just how amazing my whole life has been.

Pre-chorus 2:
And every smile and every frown and every road, up hill or down, has been the greatest thing and i'm so happy to be alive.
I really think it's funny that i used to be so sad, but now i've learned to see the world without the tears stuck in my eyes.

Chorus:
And Oh-oo-oh
Yeah I'm just happy to know
Oo-oh
That i've been high, i've been low
Oo-oh
And all is Good as Gold

Bridge:
As long as you are happy with whatever you are doing, feel happy all around and up and down and still within.
Cause when you see a smile you really shouldn't think about how white their teeth are, just smile and you'll feel happy too.
So if you look around and try to see all of the beauty you'll soon realize that all the ugly turned out to be pretty too.
I guess i think i'm crazy cause all the thoughts i have they fly too fast, too fucking fast!

(either chorus or solo)

Verse 3:
And the Whole world is so pretty, i mean everywhere you turn there is some miracle, some amazing sight you've never seen before.
And i wish i had a camera but then i remember what john said, that he wants to see the world this time with both of his eyes.
So like a sponge i soak up all the beauty in the world so i bring it to the people who really need it most.
And maybe you'll come with me as i go explore the world so you can also see the true miracle of life.

Pre-chorus 3:
Then you'll think you're crazy but you'll do amazing things and you'll see amazing sights and fall in love with everything.
And what's the point with feeling all this negativity about your body and your money, you know those aren't important things.


Chorus:
And Oh-oo-oh
Yeah I'm just happy to know
Oo-oh
That i've been high, i've been low
Oo-oh
And all is Good as Gold

(repeat chorus)

On The Road

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Dolan Balin

On the road
On cycles we go
We chase down a yellow star
Far from home
We follow her west
Not caring for where we are
Try not to look ahead
Search within you instead
Let it roll, let it roll
Forget what you think you know
So you can see what she shows you

What you could be
A million different things
The change in the world you want to see/The change that you want to see
Whatever you want to be

You don't know
how to go with the flow
She'll show you just roll along
Learn to be
Beaming glee, being free
And this trip won't feel too long
Leave your fears in the dust
We'll ride inside this warm gust
Let it go, Let it go
And all you think you know
Comes into question to show you

What you could be
A million different things
The change in the world you want to see
Whatever you want to be

(Jon or Sax solo)

Feel the sun
Her gentle breath
Is coaxing through all your pores
Let her in
Deep under your skin
She'll clean out your deepest sores
Breathe out, Breathe in
Breathe with her, begin
To let it go, let it go

(bridge)
Of the reality you hold on to
That paradigm will grown old soon
And these thoughts, they don't serve you
It's time to grow and change too
In clear sunlight she'll show you

What you could be
A million different things
The change in the world you want to see
Whatever you want to be

On the road
On cycles we go
We chase down a happy star

Freak of the Fold

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Balin

you feel the burning and yourself loosing, loosing control
it's consuming all your body and all of your soul
and the next thing you know
your down, down on the floor
and you feel her on top of you, taking control

GO!!

you're giving all you got and then you give it some more
you're nailed between this beautiful creature and the hardwood floor
She's an animal, the freak of the fold
She's howling, screaming, and not letting go
She's gonna give you her all, son, but you better give her more.

Her teeth are holding on to your ear and she's starting to moan
Your hands are digging into her hips, boy you're gonna explode
Her body's tightens, she throws her head back
Your pulse is pounding a cardiac attack
You're pushing her over the edge, you're barely holding on

Holding ON!!!!!

(bridge)

Holding on (LET GO!! LET GO!!)

****Pre-recording notes****

When deciding how to arrange this, it was clear to me this was an irish punk song. I saw a band some years ago who weren't very good but did a song based on these chords and it saying to me "rewrite me alex!" I was in a long-distance relationship at the time and whenever i got a chance to see her she was on her period and she was a weird girl who wasn't really horny on her period. In fact, knowing that she was bleeding was a huge turn-off to her and my frustrations grew. In an attempt to focus my distracting desires, i wrote this song and when i played it for her the only thing she could say interupting her heavy breathing was 'that was really hot'. Punk songs are traditionally as fast as you can play them, but most punk songs are rebelious songs, the hero overcoming or falling short of some terrible obsticle 'the man' put him in. This, however, is a sex song. Any woman will tell you that super fast sex isn't as fun as slow feel-every-part-of-you sex, so clearly this song couldn't be blazing fast. it had to be hauntingly slow, frustatingly slow flirting with annoyingly slow so that you get turned on immediately and the tension pulls you from the beginning to the end, when you explode.

She

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Dolan Balin

She

She’s haunting me

Caresses my senses and

Terrorizes the white of my eyes

She

She’s just a memory, honestly

A ghost from my past that I’d

Rather not remember right now

And I have always loved her

And I could not forget her


YEAH!

She

She is on top of me

Her breath is chilling my neck

The cold is intoxicating

She

Cradles my body

Rolling in waves of passion, her cries are

Tearing, him and me


And I have always loved you

And I could not forget you


The world is on my shoulders now and you’re still on my mind

Because you chose to take your life instead of taking mine

You’ll never leave my thoughts to rest; you’ll never leave my bed

You died for me, but now you see, that you’ve left me for dead

She

She’s looking right into me, the tapestry

She has no eyes but I know

The spirit is in disguise

She

(break)

She it still haunting me

Quietly

And I have always loved you

And I could not forget you


The world is on my shoulders now and you’re still on my mind

Because you chose to take your life instead of taking mine

You’ll never leave my thoughts to rest; you’ll never leave my bed

You died for me, but now you see, that you’ve left me for dead

Let It Go

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Dolan Balin

When I was just a kid
Just six years old underneath the sun
I was playing with my brothers
A game of tag, just making honest fun
One brother finally caught me
He hit my face
And the other cried "what have you done?"
I ran home to my mom
Told on my brother
Saying "I hate him so!"
She said, "Now chitlen listen,
You gotta LET IT GO"

Once I loved a boy
The sweetest boy I thought i ever knew
I always played him music
And he always told me that i never had to
And after months went by
I noticed something unfamiliar in his eyes
It was the face of another girl
He broke my heart, tore apart my world
And after all this time
I got to let it go

So many others just like me
Have trouble to just let it be
But if we learn to set it free
We may find that we don’t have to
Feel all of those bad things
We’ll learn to save ourselves
Learn to love ourselves always

You must have heard about it
The ugly things happening in the world
The genocide in Africa
And the starving of little boys and girls
And even our home the earth
Is dying and what have we really done?
We did this to her
And we’re the only ones that can stop it now
But our leaders keep saying
"let it go"

If I Only Knew

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Balin

....

Who Do You Say That I Am?

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Dolan Balin

I am heavy with burden
Convictions, commitments to myself
I want to let go
Of the feeling of being here right now
with you

You see right through
my porcelain face, I cannot hide
But you, you've suffered too
too much it's true
I've never felt so much pain
Not like you

And you came to rescue me
Just for generosity
But I feel unworthy
I've never been good enough

But who do you say that I am
Am I like you?
But who do you say that I am
Am I like you?

I want to be like you
I want to be someone special too
But I am nothing to praise
I am not beautiful or worthy
of this love

But you say this is not true
So what am I supposed to do?
Pretend that I'm just like you
Or change to be a better man?

But who do you say that I am
Am I like you?
But who do you say that I am
Am I like you?

No one (x3)
No one will every be anything like me
So what (x3)
So what if they never see what I am and will be
I am (x3)
I am as special as anyone and everything
So you (x3)
So you would you answer me
when I ask

DoucheBagQueefBagel

All Music and Lyrics by Alex Dolan Balin

Queef Bagel

Douche Bad